Erin Levinthal
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Hi Kelli-
Working with kids and teens, in my experience, is quite different. When I worked in pediatrics it was predominately acute viruses and bacterial infections, immune support (asthma, eczema), digestive support etc. Kids are awesome b/c they respond so quickly to treatments, grow and change before your eyes and have an innocence rarely found elsewhere, in my opinion.
The teens I have worked with are struggling in entirely different ways. I specialize in mental health and working with youth struggling with anxiety, depression, ptsd, substance use etc has been more rewarding then any other demographic I’ve worked with and we need more compassionate souls called to work with them. If you’re feeling this call I implore you to listen and trust that!
I am so touched by this share and would be happy to share my experiences working with teens and try to answer any peds questions you have as well. Feel free to call or text if you’d like to chat.
Love, erin
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I love these guidelines so much, thank you!
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Benjamin,
Thank you for this line up of Lab Work! I am inspired to make Jasmine Flower Essence and it is ready to go, at it’s peak! When I click the article link it takes me to the Inner Healing Circle Group membership page. Even though I am signed in I am unable to locate the articel. What is the name of it? Many Many thanks and Happy Solstice!!
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Christine,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful words and impactful discovery of Wolf Willow…an ally I look forward to working with and likely would not have found without you. I appreciate your prolific writings and openness to sharing them with all of us. I hope you feel the positive collective impact of this group reading and reveling in your melodic musings.
~Erin
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Joanne, Thank you for your heartfelt, moving share. Your account of your experience was palpable and it transported me back to many difficult lessons and journeys from my own deep work with Grandmother. These experiences feel like cousins to the dream state who dwell in similar realms and speak similar languages.
May your integration be gentle and fruitful and may the transmission, “She’s telling me that it’s going to hurt either way” be a guidepost for you again and again.
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Beautiful to meet you and hear a bit about your poetic story. So much lands in the heart and I look forward to letting go of the rock and riding the river with you into 2022
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Thank you so much!
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Thank you Benjamin, for being witness and holding my and everyone’s, story with reverence and pure-heartedness. I treasure the opportunity to work with you and Lorie
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Karla, I appreciate your thoughtful note and sharing the Tibetan sky burial. I find it beautiful and ancient and it stirred a deep reverence in me when I read it, thank you for that.
I am sorry I missed the first lab-group meet-up, we met again today and I am told you are quite impressive with your inner sensing skills. I look forward to connecting more throughout the year and appreciate the support you’re offering here.
~Erin
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Thank you for that tip Benjamin!
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Thank you Lorie,
I look forward to reading this ritual handout and steep in it a bit to distill the path forward. I appreciate the reminder to take my time and allow for the unfolding to reveal itself instead of trying and prying…I am so grateful to be in this supportive container to do this deep work.
Blessings to you and yours,
Erin
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Benjamin, you may recall during our reading, my prima materia was more focused on my fear-based procrastination, a life-long pattern of hiding behind the scenes licking my wounds. After our reading I felt a nugget of joy and excitement crack open and spread throughout my entire being. You helped illuminate my strengths, gifts, and mission during this wild and weird iteration of my life and you blew life into the flickering spark fueling it with hope, excitement, and truth. So many of my beliefs have been driven by the fear-based Ego and experiences of not being worthy of love let alone true happiness. I am done with poisoning the well of my potential with these untruths and I am so grateful to you and your ability to reach me through your celestial prose. Deep bows sir, deep bows.
The quote was a prayer that came through when I was re-defining my prima materia.
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Thank you Lorie, your genuine warmth and gentle inquiry to understand me more fully is touching and I welcome your insights and input to help work with my prima materia with ritual.
To answer your question of where these blockages emerged from it is all of the above. Ancestral losses on both paternal and maternal sides took root and pulsed through my my parent’s bloodlines unto me leading to developmental blockages and beliefs.
My mother lost both of her parents within 6 months of each other when she was 4 years old initiating a trajectory of under-developed parental love and crippling low self worth for decades. The resulting arrested development continues to plague my mother’s inability to fully bond with others but the most heartbreaking cost was her inability to fully bond with her own children. Her malnourished Spirit led her to believe everyone one else knew better then she so she listened to the doctors and the employers and the husband and the scared voice in her head. In the mid 70s baby formula was making a splash alongside “cry-it-out” parental advice and before maternity leave was in place. Being born in mid August, just before teachers are expected to return to the classrooms, I was placed in daycare at 2 weeks old, on formula, and crying it out at night (my mom was a classroom teacher for 30 years). This truth still cuts to the wound of abandonment and always brings me to tears, because that was just the beginning of the instability and unfair asking for me to take care of myself from the beginning. My husband used to say I was raised by wolves until I pointed out that wolves are far more attentive and caring of their young.
My father’s family immigrated from West Berlin fleeing the war when he was 3 years old. He suffered an unforgiving case of meningitis that spared his life but not his hearing. His mother was committed to ensuring he would not be cast off to the side in “schools for the dumb” (a terribly offensive term of his time). She was fastidious in her approach to ensure he could speak and read lips (not sign), attend public school and assured him that with determination and a relentless commitment to hard work he was just as capable as any hearing counter-part. When he was 16 years old she up and left the family without a trace and was never heard from again.
My father grew to become a gifted architect and builder, a passionate skier and beautiful photographer. He unfortunately never fully accepted his inability to hear and was driven more by anger and desire to prove his worth more then enjoy his incredible accomplishments. He was a perfectionist who never saw the value of children before they could contribute to household chores, had violent tendencies, incredibly high standards and I was scared of his harsh voice and would cry on demand when he spoke for the first 6 months of my life. He never came when I cried or called out, could never pick up the phone and call me after my parents divorced, and never expressed any disappointment, or acknowledgment, of this severed communication with his children.
In addition to never fully bonding with either parent my house was chaotic and unpredictable, especially after my mother separated from my father and raised her 4 dependents on a teacher’s salary. It’s important to also note that 2 of my siblings are adopted. Previous students of my mother’s (something that would never occur so casually in our current day) turned siblings. Without diving much deeper into the turbulent ocean of my childhood it is important to mention that my adopted siblings both suffered terrible abuse before joining our family which unsurprisingly rippled through our lives creating further personal instability, mental confusion, sexual abuse, and a lack of safety.
This is a sketch of the blockages from childhood that led me into two decades of depression, addiction and a conviction that I would not live to see my 30s. However, life s full of magic and miracles and with a ton of therapy, plant medicine, flower essence, exercise, loyal friendships and an emersion of a dedication to my spiritual growth, and a quiet inner voice growing louder and louder advocating for my life, I find myself typing this at age 46 where I have been happily married for the past 17 years, experiencing a beautiful bond to my 9 year-old daughter (who is currently asking me to stop typing and come eat the pancakes she has made us) and a vision of my career working with teen girls struggling with their own mental health taking shape.
I thank you Lorie for asking, witnessing, and carefully holding all the tender hearts sent your way and I humbly accept your insights on how I might infuse my prima materia with ritual.
In gratitude,
Erin
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Lovely to meet you as well! I look forward to embarking on this journey with you and have a soft spot in my heart for Perth from a lifetime ago when I spent 6 months there….and Switzerland, one of many destinations on my bucket list!